[ A polite little tap on Quetz's Communion door, akin to a soft tap on the shoulder. When Gray's mental voice follows, it's like a peek through a crack in the doorway. ]
Hello... Miss Quetzalcoatl, would you happen to have a moment?
[ Working out for fun?? Gray has many questions that shove up beneath the ones she came in hand with. Servanthood aside, Quetzalcoatl is also... a god........ ]
... I was thinking about the weapon Set is putting together. And about how if we end up needing to use it, things will probably get irreparably worse between Springstar and Highstorm.
[ All-out war, she assumes. She can't possibly see how a direct strike on Highstorm could mean anything but. ]
I suppose I'm a bit anxious about it. So I was curious to know... what you thought on the subject.
[ She does deflate a little and sounds a bit disappointed, since she’d really rather talk about something fun! But… This is important. Though her general excitement dims, it doesn’t disappear completely. It’s just a more subdued, quieter warmth that better matches the gravity of the subject. ]
Mm, they will. I don’t think there’s any doubt about that. No matter what’s it’s aimed at, it’s going to make people mad.
[ It’s putting it lightly, but that’s just how she would put it. Her perspective on it is distant in things like this, because like she’d learned with Amos and Set, she doesn’t understand the negative feelings that people have as well as the positive ones… She’s just too far away from them, honestly. ]
I’ve had to think about it a lot. I like the Zenites, you know? A lot of them are… Well, they’re just sad. [ This could be an insult, but she says it with so much warmth and empathy that it’s clearly not how she means it. ] …But I can’t just abandon the chance that the world could be saved, yes? That’s what Meridian always comes back to, for me.
[ Gray, unsurprisingly, feels a similar empathy for the Zenites. It's a bit of a relief that even a god could feel the same inner conflict, even if it sounds like Quetzalcoatl is much more assured of her choice. And why shouldn't she be? A self-assured nature is surely a hallmark of any divine being. ]
Right... If we hope to win for Meridian, then maybe there isn't a point to worrying about how the Zenites feel about it.
[ Logically, Gray understands. Emotionally, she can't help hesitating. Worrying is her own hallmark, always overthinking, always fretting. If she were given the task of firing the weapon in question, she isn't certain she could bring herself to do it, whatever the reason behind it.
In contrast to Quetzalcoatl's warmth, Gray is gloomy. ]
I have difficulty with that, I think... The idea of killing living people, even if they're supposed to be our enemy, still frightens me. Even worse if they can't properly defend themselves.
[ The warmth of Quetzalcoatl’s presence surrounds Gray just a little bit more snugly. It’s lite a soft hug or a blanket put around her shoulders as comfort. ]
It’s a hard thing. If I had my way, it’s not something that anyone would have to learn.
[ Even if her beloved people were more prone to killing others than some other societies, she still wished that they never felt the need to. Quetzalcoatl always wished for a perfect world where that sort of thing just didn’t exist, but… Especially here, that doesn’t seem possible. Still. She’ll encourage Gray warmly, even so. ]
…But sometimes you have to do hard things for what’s necessary. It doesn’t make it easier, and it can weigh pretty heavily, yes. But if there’s something you believe in and kindness and empathy for the people on the other side, then it won’t consume you.
[ For all the kindness that Gray has experienced, rarely is it so warm and honest. And when it comes to a topic like death and killing, she's used to it being shrouded in a somber air. It takes a different kind of strength to be both compassionate and effective, Gray thinks.
Her pensive thoughts lighten as Quetzalcoatl's wisdom settles like a blanket over her. ]
I think I understand. Thank you.
[ From a different perspective, it might seem twisted for a young person to thank someone for permission to kill -- but Gray truly is thankful. She doesn't want to hold her allies back with her softness. She's been a child to them for too long enough already. ]
Miss Quetzalcoatl... If Meridian wins and we all go back home. Since you're a Servant, will that mean you'll go back to the Throne of Heroes?
[ The thanks makes that warmth just a little more vibrant. With the analogy of a hug, she gives a little more of a squeeze that’s tight, but still tender. The topic may be somber, but she’s still happy when people ask for her advice! She may be a bit simple for a god of wisdom, but she still thinks she has some to provide. It just comes from a place of deep love rather than rationality like most of profess wisdom might favor. It’s all the “you’re so welcome” that needs to be said, and that’s especially true with Gray’s question. ]
Oh, yep, for sure! It gets kind of fuzzy because that’s just how it works, but I’m pretty sure that’s where Kenos grabbed me from. Um, somehow!
[ …Wisdom and book smarts are different, okay. She has no idea when it comes to the mechanics of summonings or how they’re able to call to her, and she doesn’t really have an interest to learn. She’s just kind of happy to be here, wherever “here” ends up being! ]
It does make it a little sad, since it means I won’t remember Kenos all that well… But I just have to enjoy it while I can, yes! Maybe you and I will meet again, you never know! There’s a place called Chaldea that grabs all kinds of people after all!
For all that Gray has learned about Servants via her mentor, the fine details are still a bit beyond her grasp. But she at least knows about Servants' memories resetting by the time they're summoned again, so if by some strange miracle Gray were to meet Quetzalcoatl again back home, things would be different...
She definitely doesn't know the name Chaldea, and it elicits a little ping of curiosity. Especially if Gray of all people might possibly have cause to be there at the same time as a god like Quetzalcoatl. She supposes it wouldn't be so farfetched for her mentor to be called there if it's an unusual place (which can inspire unusual murders), and she would naturally tag along with him. ]
Chaldea? I don't believe I've heard of it. It has something to do with Servants?
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Hello... Miss Quetzalcoatl, would you happen to have a moment?
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[ Quetzalcoatl responds with bright happiness to Gray’s “knock” and she’s welcomed in with all the sunshine that normally characterizes her. ]
Sí, of course! I’m just doing some working out for fun right now, so let’s chat!
[ Definitely just casually weightlifting an absurd amount and for no reason… It’s not like Servants need to train… ]
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... I was thinking about the weapon Set is putting together. And about how if we end up needing to use it, things will probably get irreparably worse between Springstar and Highstorm.
[ All-out war, she assumes. She can't possibly see how a direct strike on Highstorm could mean anything but. ]
I suppose I'm a bit anxious about it. So I was curious to know... what you thought on the subject.
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[ She does deflate a little and sounds a bit disappointed, since she’d really rather talk about something fun! But… This is important. Though her general excitement dims, it doesn’t disappear completely. It’s just a more subdued, quieter warmth that better matches the gravity of the subject. ]
Mm, they will. I don’t think there’s any doubt about that. No matter what’s it’s aimed at, it’s going to make people mad.
[ It’s putting it lightly, but that’s just how she would put it. Her perspective on it is distant in things like this, because like she’d learned with Amos and Set, she doesn’t understand the negative feelings that people have as well as the positive ones… She’s just too far away from them, honestly. ]
I’ve had to think about it a lot. I like the Zenites, you know? A lot of them are… Well, they’re just sad. [ This could be an insult, but she says it with so much warmth and empathy that it’s clearly not how she means it. ] …But I can’t just abandon the chance that the world could be saved, yes? That’s what Meridian always comes back to, for me.
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Right... If we hope to win for Meridian, then maybe there isn't a point to worrying about how the Zenites feel about it.
[ Logically, Gray understands. Emotionally, she can't help hesitating. Worrying is her own hallmark, always overthinking, always fretting. If she were given the task of firing the weapon in question, she isn't certain she could bring herself to do it, whatever the reason behind it.
In contrast to Quetzalcoatl's warmth, Gray is gloomy. ]
I have difficulty with that, I think... The idea of killing living people, even if they're supposed to be our enemy, still frightens me. Even worse if they can't properly defend themselves.
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It’s a hard thing. If I had my way, it’s not something that anyone would have to learn.
[ Even if her beloved people were more prone to killing others than some other societies, she still wished that they never felt the need to. Quetzalcoatl always wished for a perfect world where that sort of thing just didn’t exist, but… Especially here, that doesn’t seem possible. Still. She’ll encourage Gray warmly, even so. ]
…But sometimes you have to do hard things for what’s necessary. It doesn’t make it easier, and it can weigh pretty heavily, yes. But if there’s something you believe in and kindness and empathy for the people on the other side, then it won’t consume you.
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Her pensive thoughts lighten as Quetzalcoatl's wisdom settles like a blanket over her. ]
I think I understand. Thank you.
[ From a different perspective, it might seem twisted for a young person to thank someone for permission to kill -- but Gray truly is thankful. She doesn't want to hold her allies back with her softness. She's been a child to them for too long enough already. ]
Miss Quetzalcoatl... If Meridian wins and we all go back home. Since you're a Servant, will that mean you'll go back to the Throne of Heroes?
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Oh, yep, for sure! It gets kind of fuzzy because that’s just how it works, but I’m pretty sure that’s where Kenos grabbed me from. Um, somehow!
[ …Wisdom and book smarts are different, okay. She has no idea when it comes to the mechanics of summonings or how they’re able to call to her, and she doesn’t really have an interest to learn. She’s just kind of happy to be here, wherever “here” ends up being! ]
It does make it a little sad, since it means I won’t remember Kenos all that well… But I just have to enjoy it while I can, yes! Maybe you and I will meet again, you never know! There’s a place called Chaldea that grabs all kinds of people after all!
[ somehow, she’s correct, ]
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For all that Gray has learned about Servants via her mentor, the fine details are still a bit beyond her grasp. But she at least knows about Servants' memories resetting by the time they're summoned again, so if by some strange miracle Gray were to meet Quetzalcoatl again back home, things would be different...
She definitely doesn't know the name Chaldea, and it elicits a little ping of curiosity. Especially if Gray of all people might possibly have cause to be there at the same time as a god like Quetzalcoatl. She supposes it wouldn't be so farfetched for her mentor to be called there if it's an unusual place (which can inspire unusual murders), and she would naturally tag along with him. ]
Chaldea? I don't believe I've heard of it. It has something to do with Servants?