[ Mordred... Moedred... This is not helping you beat the cute allegations (only Quetz thinks this) ]
Oh! It's no problem at all! Gray is a very sweet señorita so far as I can tell, so I was happy to do it!
[ But of course, Quetzalcoatl thinks it's very sweet that Mordred would go through the trouble of thanking her. It's polite, of course, which is more important to her than she lets on, but it speaks to a care for Gray that she can appreciate too. Plus, now knowing the smallest amount about their (semi) blood relation, it's even nicer! ]
Can I ask, though? Why did you want to leave before she saw you?
[ Quetz's fanon Mordred is such an improvement over the real thing... wish we could trade.
It's frustrating that Quetzalcoatl is so Quetzalcoatl, and won't just let her say thanks and dip, but even though she meets the other woman's sunny positivity with her own wave of dour negativity, she's not quite rude enough to leave her on read. The explanation comes slowly, reluctantly, through the communion-equivalent of gritted teeth. Mordred isn't sure why she feels this way; only that she does, and that it really, really, sucks. ]
I wasn't there when she died, so I didn't have the right to face her. I even held on to her Shard for a while, 'cause I was worried the same shit might happen again, and I wouldn't be able to stop it... but that wasn't fair to her either.
[ "I couldn't protect her and I feel bad about it," but the emotionally stunted version. She sighs. ]
It's all so freakin' stupid. Of course people are gonna die in a war. Hell, I lost count of how many I killed when I was alive. I don't get why it feels different this time.
[ Luckily, Quetzalcoatl is wise enough to read between the lines. There’s a warm bit of fondness that comes through, since she understands it. She had failed to protect someone herself when she’d been killed and even if it was just a random person, it sits with her. After all, they weren’t a Shard-Bearer, so that was it. But she won’t get into that, nor outwardly comment on Mordred’s explanation. There’s just understanding and acceptance of the answer. ]
Well, it is different, I think! People don’t usually get the chance to come back, for one. It’s what makes this war… Hm, more complicated, I guess? Since I think you understand. If it were normal warfare on a battlefield, then we could cut each other down without knowing our enemy. I couldn’t even begin to guess how many people I’ve killed either, after all.
[ What a bloody camaraderie. Granted, she’s very serious because part of her kill count includes the worlds that she and her pantheon had wiped clean before beginning again… But even in fighting with a sword and shield, there was never any point in learning who she was fighting, really. So, she gets it. ]
We get a chance to know each other and care. So, it’s more complicated when they die. Not just for the dying itself, but the fact that they come back too.
[ See, Mordred denies it, but she doesn't actually know enough to argue. Nobody has ever cared about her, so it's only natural that she has no concept of what it feels like to care for someone else. To her, it sounds more like Quetz is calling her weak — which is why she continues to angrily ("angrily") protest. ]
Don't be a fool, sun god. We're not even allies, much less friends. How can I care about someone that I'm going to kill?
[ Quetzalcoatl is absolutely the wrong person to ask about this, because her opinions of caring vs. killing are,
Uh, ]
Oh, I don’t know! I think it’s possible! There are a few Zenites that I like, but I’d also cut them down when it comes to it, you know? Since they’d revive, it’s a little different!
[ It might sound like a special case for Kenos, but… No, not really. If she had more of her divinity, she’d be liable to revive the people she slayed here too. It’s sometimes necessary to kill people for a larger goal, but it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t mourn those people, in her way. Also known as: Quetzalcoatl is an outlier and should not be counted for anything. ]
I don’t know if that’d be the case for Gray, of course… But I don’t think it’s that strange to care!
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Oh! It's no problem at all! Gray is a very sweet señorita so far as I can tell, so I was happy to do it!
[ But of course, Quetzalcoatl thinks it's very sweet that Mordred would go through the trouble of thanking her. It's polite, of course, which is more important to her than she lets on, but it speaks to a care for Gray that she can appreciate too. Plus, now knowing the smallest amount about their (semi) blood relation, it's even nicer! ]
Can I ask, though? Why did you want to leave before she saw you?
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It's frustrating that Quetzalcoatl is so Quetzalcoatl, and won't just let her say thanks and dip, but even though she meets the other woman's sunny positivity with her own wave of dour negativity, she's not quite rude enough to leave her on read. The explanation comes slowly, reluctantly, through the communion-equivalent of gritted teeth. Mordred isn't sure why she feels this way; only that she does, and that it really, really, sucks. ]
I wasn't there when she died, so I didn't have the right to face her. I even held on to her Shard for a while, 'cause I was worried the same shit might happen again, and I wouldn't be able to stop it... but that wasn't fair to her either.
[ "I couldn't protect her and I feel bad about it," but the emotionally stunted version. She sighs. ]
It's all so freakin' stupid. Of course people are gonna die in a war. Hell, I lost count of how many I killed when I was alive. I don't get why it feels different this time.
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Well, it is different, I think! People don’t usually get the chance to come back, for one. It’s what makes this war… Hm, more complicated, I guess? Since I think you understand. If it were normal warfare on a battlefield, then we could cut each other down without knowing our enemy. I couldn’t even begin to guess how many people I’ve killed either, after all.
[ What a bloody camaraderie. Granted, she’s very serious because part of her kill count includes the worlds that she and her pantheon had wiped clean before beginning again… But even in fighting with a sword and shield, there was never any point in learning who she was fighting, really. So, she gets it. ]
We get a chance to know each other and care. So, it’s more complicated when they die. Not just for the dying itself, but the fact that they come back too.
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... I don't particularly care about her, though. [ Ok. ]
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...Even though you came to make sure she revived properly? Even if you didn't stay, that's pretty caring!
[ just absolutely called out but with all of the cheer as if this were a compliment? it's fine mordred dw about it, quetz knows the truth!! ]
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Don't be a fool, sun god. We're not even allies, much less friends. How can I care about someone that I'm going to kill?
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Uh, ]
Oh, I don’t know! I think it’s possible! There are a few Zenites that I like, but I’d also cut them down when it comes to it, you know? Since they’d revive, it’s a little different!
[ It might sound like a special case for Kenos, but… No, not really. If she had more of her divinity, she’d be liable to revive the people she slayed here too. It’s sometimes necessary to kill people for a larger goal, but it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t mourn those people, in her way. Also known as: Quetzalcoatl is an outlier and should not be counted for anything. ]
I don’t know if that’d be the case for Gray, of course… But I don’t think it’s that strange to care!